Just in case you wanted to know

Since it's early and I can't sleep and I'm thinking about me and what makes me, well, me ... here are some facts, just in case you wanted to know:

I'm free spirited

I'm outgoing but I don't let people in often

I don't fall easily but when I do, damn, I fall HARD

I'm not in love but I easily could be ... *sighs*

I'll try just about everything once

I love to hear people's stories

I'm confident on many levels but insecure on some

I don't front ... I am who I am

Insecurities and all, I'm a fly azz biatch

I can sooo shady

I miss working out

I recently lost 20 lbs

I didn't weigh myself for three months so I didn't really know how much I'd lost until yesterday

When I commit myself to something, it's hard to sway me in another direction

I used to front about my feelings ... I don't anymore

I think most people are fake and unaware

I'm not living wondering where I can go, I'm living it

My motto for 2008: "Try not. Do or do not. There is no try." (that midget alien was brilliant)

I'm hard on myself

I demand excellence from myself and others

I have moments of weakness just like everyone else

The hard facade is mostly a mask ... stick around if you want to see the real

Still, I don't take bullshit

I can be blunt to a fault but have learned that one can have an iron fist with a velvet glove

I have a short temper and will read you if you take me there

I have no patience for nasty people

I have a strong bourgeoise streak

But I can be real down to earth as well

I'm contemplating buying a total gym

I'm proud to a fault

I'm lonely

I want love

But am still wrestling with the work that will require

I have no delusions about love

It's hard

It's wrenching

But the euphoria makes up for it all

I never thought I'd want to have another kid

But if I met the right man, I just might have one more

I believe there is always order to chaos even if you don't see it

I believe we're all divine beings

I love, love, love being a woman

If I could have a superpower, I would want the ability to morph ... I would be so mischievous!

I would like to be a man for a while ... if only to get insight into the male mind and heart ...

I have a horrible track record with men ... I sure know how to pick 'em .... NOT!

I've made some dumb ass mistakes in my life

But I wouldn't change a damn thing ... No regrets.

I am only now realizing how self aware I am ...

And I'm only now realizing how straight forward I am ...

In seeing that most people are not.

I get scared just like anyone else ...

The difference is that I use fear as a catalyst ...

What I fear most is not doing it ... the idea of failure scares the shit out of me.

I'm taking it there ... and I don't give a fuck who doubts, who questions ...

It's as simple as that ...